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Answering obediently, he turned me around and sat me down. As I leaned back against his chest and spread my legs wide, a hot, thick cock pushed its way into my empty hole.
“Ngh…!”
“It’s so soft, hah, but the pressure is just the same…”
“Ah… Ugh, ngh…”
As his cock sank all the way in, I felt his hands supporting the backs of my knees, lifting my hips into the air. Stepping right off the bed, he held me up and began to thrust his hips.
“Ah! Ah! Ahn!”
The sensation of being thrust upward by his cock and then dropping back down in midair repeated over and over. Behind my high-pitched cries, his hidden groans tickled my ears. He kept whispering my name, Yiel, and telling me he loved me.
After being shaken mindlessly for a long time, he finally seemed ready to come and laid me face down on the bed. He pressed his body over my back, pinning me down so hard the mattress sank in. Soon, we reached our climax at the same time.
“Nnngh…!”
“Ugh…!”
The pleasure surged to the crown of my head before morphing into a heat that seemed to explode through my entire body. My mind felt like it was shattering into pieces as my vision washed out in white.
For a moment, I forgot who I was and became the biggest fool in the world.
“I love you. I love you, Yiel.”
Hearing Felix’s calm confession in that state made my mouth open on its own, completely against my will. Intoxicated by some indescribable emotion, I ended up letting out a half-sobbing cry, ‘I love you, too.’
*
“I love you.”
Staring blankly at the ceiling, I suddenly felt Felix pull me into his arms and whisper, and I thought to myself: I’m screwed.
Now that day had fully broken, the heated emotions of the dawn were nowhere to be found. If those feelings were going to evaporate so vainly, wouldn’t it be fair if the words I spouted while intoxicated by them evaporated too?
“You love me?”
But Felix, now fully awake, insisted on dragging out something that shouldn’t have been given any meaning, desperate to wring some kind of confirmation out of me.
“Hmm?”
I couldn’t say a word as he pressed me for an answer. So I just closed my eyes tight and pretended not to hear. Felix began to lightly nip at the shell of my ear.
“Why won’t you say it? You definitely said you loved me.”
I can’t hear him. I can’t hear anything. When I continued to play dumb, Felix must have gotten sulky, because this time he grabbed my breast tightly to demand my attention. I couldn’t help but grimace at the grip that was bordering on painful, but I stuck to my feigned ignorance. Felix lightly bit my shoulder.
No matter how much I thought about it, it was a mistake. Should I just tell him they were empty words?
I’d meant it in the moment, but now I wasn’t so sure. I was starting to wonder if I’d just lost my mind and spouted nonsense. Actually, no—my feelings didn’t matter anyway. Nothing was going to change, regardless.
I was simply worried that my words from the dawn had given Felix false hope, or conversely, that they had become some sort of shackle.
I had nothing I could promise Felix. I didn’t want to change him to suit me, either. That was because I couldn’t take responsibility for those changes. Before and even now, I only wanted a casual relationship.
So, if I could take back the words from dawn, I wanted to take them back. I didn’t want to tie him down with words like ‘I love you.’ And I shouldn’t, either.
Even if I heard those words a hundred times, I wouldn’t expect anything, but who knew how Felix felt. I didn’t want to hurt him. I just wanted us to have fun and then, someday, end our relationship with a slightly regretful goodbye.
This time, Felix’s fingers began to circle my nipple. Letting out a soft groan, I pushed him away with force.
“Stop… I have to get up.”
“Tch…”
Making a disgruntled sound, he obediently pulled his hands back. But just as I slipped out of bed and stood up, he suddenly yanked my waist from behind. Plonked right back down onto the bed, I looked back at him. He rested his chin on my shoulder and asked.
“Should we shower together?”
“No, it’ll take too long.”
I peeled him off me, adding that I had a set time to be at work. Felix looked disappointed, but he backed off as if he had no choice.
I washed up first, then prepared breakfast while Felix took his turn. After we ate together, I got ready for work and slipped on my coat. Even then, Felix was sitting in a chair in light clothing, showing no signs of moving.
“Aren’t you going to put your coat on?”
“Why?”
“What do you mean, why? We have to leave together.”
“I don’t have anything to do today, though?”
“…?”
We stared at each other for a moment before tilting our heads at almost the exact same time.
“You aren’t going to the inn?”
“I have no business there.”
He propped his chin on his hand and pointed out that even if he offered to help, I’d just refuse anyway.
“No, that’s not it. You need to get a room to stay in.”
“What do you mean, why…? This is my house. You should have your own place to stay.”
At that, Felix let out a deep sigh.
“Yiel.”
“Yeah.”
“Usually, when you go to an unfamiliar place, if you have a close acquaintance, it’s best to impose on them if possible.”
“What?”
“You can get information through a local, and above all, you save on accommodation fees, which is a huge plus. The acquaintance offers a place to stay, and the guest helps out with small chores around the house. It’s about helping each other out. Besides, aren’t we lovers? We’re way closer than mere acquaintances, don’t you think?”
Felix shamelessly shrugged his shoulders, claiming that it was perfectly natural for him to stay here. I was a little dumbfounded.
“Even then, the homeowner’s permission comes first. I never gave you permission. And I’m not going to, either.”
At my refusal, Felix crossed his arms and spoke with dissatisfaction.
“Yiel, think about it carefully. That scumbag you almost fell for yesterday is staying at Yumir’s inn right now. If I go there and end up running into that guy, I don’t think anything pleasant is going to happen. Wouldn’t that get in the way of your work?”
“I trust you won’t make things difficult for me.”
“You trust me? You didn’t even believe me when I said I’d come back. You liar.”
“You even got an apology from him. Why would you go out of your way to pick a fight?”
Honestly, it was only because that guest had a good personality and apologized first that things ended cleanly; if he’d been someone with a lot of pride, it might have turned into a pretty uncomfortable situation.
And I didn’t think it was really anyone’s fault to begin with. Everyone’s circumstances were just different.
But Felix seemed to think he was the one who had been wronged the most, and perhaps because of that, he was still wearing a deeply petulant expression.
“Picking a fight is something you do because you’re in a bad mood. The reason gets made up afterward.”
“That man is part of a group of guests. If you start a fight for no reason, you’re the one who’ll end up in a tight spot, since you don’t have your crew with you.”
“We won’t know that until we clash.”
“Fel…”
I called his name, hoping he wouldn’t act so exhausting first thing in the morning. Felix softened his expression a little.
“That’s exactly why I’m choosing to just not see him at all. If I had it my way, I wouldn’t let you go to work either. But I know you’d hate that, so I’m holding back.”
“Well, I hate the idea of you squatting in my house like this, too.”
“Even if I get a room, I’m generally going to try and sleep with you at night anyway, so doesn’t that give us even less of a reason to live apart? Besides, you’d feel much safer and more comfortable having sex at your house rather than in some inn room.”
“…You’re seriously shameless. It feels like I’m taking in a kept man.”
I sighed involuntarily, rubbing my face dryly with my hands.
“Hey, I don’t plan on being that useless, you know?”
A grumbling complaint immediately followed from Felix about how he could earn his keep, but I already felt like I had taken on a half-baked nuisance.
“Alright. You can stay here until the group of guests leaves. But after that, you have to leave without a fuss. I’m not the type to let people into my house, so just having someone else’s presence around makes me uncomfortable.”
“You are?”
“I’m what?”
“…No, never mind.”
Felix, who had been looking at me strangely with an unreadable expression, soon returned to his usual nonchalant face and spoke.
“Well, we can talk about that again when the time comes.”
“Don’t just slyly…”
“Don’t you have to go to work?”
He pulled a pocket watch out of his pocket, showing it to me with a grin. He looked so infuriating, but dragging this conversation out any longer would only be my loss, so I decided to back down for now.
