Episode 15
My husband wore a cynical curve on his lips and answered:
“Th-that’s because you said for a while you didn’t want children.”
“Is sex something you only do to make babies?
To stop it one-sidedly without even discussing it with your partner—what is that supposed to mean?
And did I ever say I never wanted children for the rest of my life?
I wanted children very much.
But since you no longer seemed interested in my body,
I gave up—crying inside all the while.”
“Then… if that’s the case, this whole lack of intimacy started from a misunderstanding.
We can start now, have a child together.
I’ve always wanted a baby with you, the woman I love.
Now that our feelings align, we can still fix this.”
“You mean… you’d hold me only to make a child?”
I bit my trembling lips in anger.
“N-no, I didn’t mean only for that…”
Yet, hearing my husband’s belated suggestion made me realize something within myself—
a truth I hadn’t even noticed until now.
Me… having sex with him?
Disgusting. That’s what I thought.
Too much time had passed for me to suddenly feel otherwise.
Both my heart and body could only react with rejection toward my husband.
What a terrible thing!
Surely, he’s just saying whatever now to soothe me,
but eventually, he’ll realize he feels the same.
I only happened to notice it a little earlier than he did.
Enough with this delusion.
These ten sexless years can never be undone.
Husband, face reality—I scolded him silently in my heart.
