Chapter 41

A hollow laugh escaped, born out of absurdity. There was a hint of bitterness in it.

“Is this what they call forbidden? Am I someone who can never be with you? Why can’t you even imagine that I’ve harbored feelings for you for so long?”

Even if he wanted to go further, he couldn’t voice the truth, afraid she’d step back in fear or disappear from his life altogether.

“She’s a woman. Not married or anything.”

But he couldn’t lie either.

“A woman? Someone I know? Is she way older? A nun? Some unattainable love? Or does she just hate you? Thinks you’re gross? Why aren’t you making a move? Oh, is it because of your ‘condition’? Because you can’t… function?”

Jeongyeon’s questions poured out like a waterfall.

The last one cut deep. Yet not once did she suspect that she herself could be the reason.

He felt a little irritated, wanting to respond sarcastically.

“Yeah. That’s why… you need to fix me.”

It was strange. Seonghun admitted it. That there was someone in his heart.

But her own emotions felt off.

When Seoyeora exposed that Seonghun liked someone, Jeongyeon wondered for a fleeting moment, “Could it be me?”

Their recent tangled moments had been so heavy with sensuality that such a delusion wasn’t impossible.

She hid that tiny hope deep in her subconscious and asked casually.

Married woman, a man – it was all just packaging. What she really wanted to ask was, “Is it me?”

But she couldn’t throw that raw question at him. She lacked the confidence or certainty that she was the woman he held in his heart.

She thought, “No way… he’s known me for 29 years. If it were me, I’d know. Just asking would make my face burn.”

As expected, his answer didn’t name her.

She felt she should’ve been curious enough to dig out who it was. But alongside her curiosity, there was a fear of knowing.

If she learned who the woman in his heart was, she felt like something inside her would shatter.

Even now, her chest felt hollow, as if a cold wind passed straight through.

She suddenly wanted to lash out childishly.

“Good. If you can be with another woman… we can go back to how we were. As friends.”

“Then make it possible, Jeongyeon.”

Strangely, it sounded like he was begging her.

Seonghun looked at her with eyes so fragile, as if he would crumble at any moment. A translucent light shimmered in his clear gaze.

Why are you looking at me like that… like I’m the one hurting you?

She didn’t know why, but all she wanted was to hold him. To cling to his lips.

It’s all your fault.

We were just friends. Precious friends. But why did you have to become a man to me… Why do you make me want to touch you so badly?

She reached out with both hands, pulling him by the nape of his neck to capture his lips.

She kissed her friend, Lee Seonghun.

Chu―

As she tasted his thick, soft lips, a sweet pain-like pleasure coursed through her.

She liked his lips. If she had known they felt this good, she might’ve bitten into them long ago.

Such a bizarre thought. His lips had a taste.

Suddenly, his lips parted, and a sweet, moist tongue slipped into her mouth.

“Haa… mmm.”

Tastes good. His lips, his tongue, his saliva. Why was she just now discovering the pleasure of savoring him? It made her regret not knowing sooner.

She was sucked into him, her senses melting at the warmth swirling inside her mouth.

Chuup. Jjrup.

Wet, obscene sounds spread between their lips as her fingers tangled through his thick hair.

Since when… did I want to feel you like this?

His fresh scent filled her nose. His hair coiled around her fingers. His vivid texture pressed against her lips. His tongue moved even deeper, more daringly.

It felt like sensations she’d craved for a very long time.

In an instant, he pushed her down onto the sofa with forceful lips.

Their mouths remained locked as his firm, thick thigh pressed between her legs.

“Hnng.”

Her cotton shorts blocked direct contact, but the heavy pressure drove her wild.

Meanwhile, his lips slid down to lick her neckline.

“Haa… Seonghun-ah……”

Her fragile voice trembled, almost breaking. He wanted to hear it so badly – his name spoken like that, not just “Lee Seonghun” but “Seonghun-ah”, as intimately as she called Godohun “Dohun-i.”

Unable to restrain herself, her hands slipped under his T-shirt, yearning for his warm skin.

Ever since I felt you once… I can’t stop. After 29 years of holding back, my desire exploded.

Her hand dove under his T-shirt, reaching up under his bra to grab her sweet, soft chest like plucking a ripe fruit.

The supple flesh filled his palm.

Unable to hold back, he pulled up her T-shirt and brought his lips to where his hand had been.

“Haa… ah……”

A powerful sensation spread as he sucked hard on her peak.

“Ah, Seonghun-ah… ha……”

She thought she’d go crazy. It felt like sparks of electric pleasure shooting through her entire body.

His damp lips teased and bit her tender skin, his tongue tracing her hardening peaks with blatant sensuality.

But he didn’t stop there. His kisses trailed down her body.

Seonghun savored her with his lips and hands as he moved lower. Her shorts slipped off easily under his touch.

Then his breath fell softly over her most intimate place.

“Seonghun-ah……”

Even in her overwhelming arousal, embarrassment and shame rose.

“Jeongyeon-ah… I’m sorry, but today… I can’t stop.”

His low voice whispered as he lowered himself further and pulled aside the last piece of cloth.

She felt his black pupils staring directly at her secret place.

Something a friend should never see… he was seeing now. But even more shocking…

He pressed his lips to her hidden core.

He touched her, invaded her sensitive place with his moist softness. The mixed wetness of both their bodies seeped out.

Like rain bursting a flower bud, his damp warmth awakened her sharpest senses.

“Haa……”

Her underwear was already too soaked to serve its purpose, revealing just how aroused she was.

Almost as if he’d been waiting, Seonghun pulled her beige underwear aside and lowered his mouth to her completely.

His black eyes stained her most secret place as his lips explored what only lovers should ever see.

With each touch and taste of him, her pleasure exploded like fireworks across a night sky.

Her body shook uncontrollably with every burst of sensation.