7
“Why were you so angry earlier?”
“Me? No way. I wasn’t angry. You were the one who got mad. I just suddenly had something to think about.”
“Think about what?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Didn’t you open the door so we could talk?”
“No? I’m not in the mood to talk yet. I just opened it because I didn’t want to leave you standing outside the door until then.”
Sitting on the bed, he looked up at me. There it was again, that loyal dog expression. It always made me weak. I snapped my head away to avoid his gaze.
“So don’t go standing around in the cold night breeze for no reason anymore. It upsets me.”
At that moment, Felix pulled me in tightly by the waist and hugged me.
The sudden, crushing pressure felt like it would snap my spine in two, knocking the breath right out of my lungs.
“You’re doing it again! Ugh! Hey!”
“…Sorry. I misjudged my strength.”
Felix immediately loosened his grip and apologized. He rested his head against my stomach with a soft thud.
“I just suddenly felt so crazy about you.”
“I thought you always liked me?”
“Yeah. I do.”
“Then where does ‘suddenly’ come in? You’ve been lying this whole time.”
“I haven’t been lying.”
“Yes, you have.”
“No, I haven’t.”
As if in protest, Felix nudged his head against my stomach again. I naturally stumbled, but he instantly caught me. Pushing me away just to pull me right back—it was a literal puppet show.
“Let go. I’m going to sleep.”
He glanced up at me through his lashes.
“Are you still not in the mood?”
“For which one?”
In the mood for sex? Or in the mood to talk?
“Either one.”
Felix slowly stroked down my arm, capturing my fingertips and gently kneading them. Soon after, his lips pressed against the palms of my hands one by one, before he went right back to squishing them in his grasp.
It reminded me of a childhood trend where we used to play with soft stress balls as a form of healing therapy.
Well, I wasn’t a ball, but it was clear Felix was trying to soothe some kind of anxiety through me in a similar way, so I quietly watched his cautious, pleading gestures.
With his head bowed, Felix spoke.
“I know I have no choice but to always lose to you, and I don’t even think it’s unfair. …But this time, I was genuinely hurt.”
Not knowing what to say, I kept my mouth shut.
“I clearly told you to wait for me. You even said you would with your own mouth. We made a promise.”
We did. But I had truly thought it was over.
“So why didn’t you wait? Why did you try to move on to someone else so easily?”
Because it was over. In that case, having another encounter was only natural. But saying that would obviously start another fight, so I kept my mouth shut this time too.
“So you really are in the wrong this time. There’s no point in being stubborn, just admit it.”
“…Yeah.”
“And your apology?”
“I’m sorry.”
“Can you promise you won’t do it again?”
“Honestly… I don’t know.”
I felt his grip tighten.
“Why.”
“Because I don’t know what you want from me.”
Setting aside things like Divine Power or suspicions for a moment—sure, he liked me. I could admit that much. I understood. But what came next?
Saying he’d keep coming back to me, even if he had to step away for a bit, ultimately meant he wanted to build an ongoing relationship with me, didn’t it? As if he were some kind of settler.
But I could never be a settler.
The only reason I had accepted relationships with a drifter until now was because I was also a drifter. That was the only way I could carry out the Master’s orders without any lingering consequences.
If I had completely lost my sense of self when I was first bound to the Master, I wouldn’t have even needed such relationships. Sadly, I still retained my own heart, so I sometimes yearned for someone’s warmth and the connection that came with it, even if it was just for a single night.
Knowing that even this would disappear one day, the mere fragments of my remaining humanity were incredibly precious to me. It was my utmost greed, a desperate struggle to hold onto it for just a little bit longer.
At the same time, I never forgot that anything beyond that was a realm I shouldn’t reach for.
I am human, yet not human. I must never forget that I am merely a slave, already leashed to a god, forced to walk the exact path my god takes.
So, while I was sorry for unintentionally hurting him, someone like me couldn’t possibly fathom what he was thinking, meaning I couldn’t give him a clear answer.
I needed to know first. Why a mere drifter’s promise to return had to be more than just empty words. Or if, perhaps, he was wishing for something from me that was entirely impossible.
“Fel, what exactly are you hoping for by coming back to me?”
Fel’s brow furrowed as he looked up at me. Just as it was hard for me to read his inner thoughts, he seemed to find it equally difficult to understand me. It took him a long time before he answered, sounding a bit unsure.
“…For you to welcome me back?”
“Is that all?”
“Yeah, probably.”
“Then… that’s fine.”
“Is that a satisfactory answer?”
“I don’t know about satisfactory, but it’s something I can easily do for you.”
“Then what about you? Can you make a proper promise now?”
“If there’s truly no lie in your answer, then yeah.”
Felix held out his pinky finger. As I linked mine with his, he gave me a clear warning.
“Don’t look at anyone else but me. If I have to see something like that again, I think I really will end up killing the other guy.”
“I’ll do that while we’re dating.”
“…It’s not wrong, but it’s really annoying when you tack on unnecessary conditions like that. You’re just trying to give me a heart attack on purpose, aren’t you? You’re so mean.”
“Not many people have called me mean. Most say I’m nice. Maybe you just feel that way because you’re the mean one?”
“Alright, alright, so how about you make me feel better now? We’ve officially made up, haven’t we?”
Wrapping his arms around my waist with just the right amount of pressure this time, Felix looked up at me.
“I missed you so much while I was away. Originally, my plan was to kiss you the second I saw you.”
“Just a kiss?”
“Obviously, I had no intention of letting you sleep tonight.”
We stared at each other for a moment before bursting into giggles at almost the exact same time, tumbling back onto the bed.
“Ah…!”
The slick, squelching sound of his fingers swimming through my wetness echoed as they slid into my pussy. Exhaling a feverish breath, I cupped Felix’s cheeks with both hands. He nuzzled his face into my palms before lifting his head to capture my lips.
The harder our tongues tangled and ground together, the more the fingers buried inside me mimicked the motion, scraping against my inner walls. They weren’t as soft as his tongue, but the friction was far more forceful, ramping up the stimulation much faster than the kiss. Unable to handle it, I quickly broke the kiss with a gasp and let out a sharp cry.
“Ah!”
Losing what he had just been devouring, Felix wet his lips with his tongue in disappointment before shifting his attention to my breasts. He immediately took one into his mouth, while the other was claimed by his free hand—the one that had been idling without a task, unlike the hand vigorously churning inside me.
Both of my nipples peaked hard under the intense pressure, one being chewed by his teeth and the other caught and twisted by his fingers. His tongue swiped over the stiffened bud before sucking it forcefully deep into his mouth.
“Ah, ahh…! Ah!”
The fingers inside me dug even deeper. A tight ache flared up as my entrance was stretched open to accommodate the intrusion. My lower back arched on instinct. Sensing this, Felix released my breast and lifted his head.
“What are you trying to do, clenching around me like this.”
“Ah, ah…!”
“Want me to make you come just like this?”
“Yes…! Yes!”
I nodded vigorously. But, in a wicked display of teasing, he yanked his fingers completely out of me. A wave of miserable deprivation washed over the sudden emptiness, making me stare up at him, on the verge of tears.
“Huh? Why? Whyyy…!”
“I want to see you beg.”
“Ahhh…! Ah!”
What the hell, this jerk is so annoying! Stranded right on the edge of climax, the pent-up arousal seemed to run rampant through my entire body. I curled my trembling frame inward and whimpered.
“Is it because you don’t have to worry about anyone hearing us? You’re exceptionally sensitive today.”
“I hate you…”
“Yeah, I love you too.”
Felix grabbed my arms and pulled me toward him. Following his lead, I straddled his lap and gripped his shoulders. He grabbed his cock with one hand, aligning the head right against my clit and grinding it in.
“Ah, ahh, ah…”
“Haa, ah…”
My lower belly seized tightly, and a sudden gush of slick poured out of me. After vigorously grinding against my clit for a long while, he suddenly glanced down and let out a low chuckle.
“You’re so incredibly wet. At this rate, I think I’ll slip right in without any resistance at all.”
“Then put it in…”
