Chapter 1
In the cramped one-room apartment, sweat poured down even if you stayed still, so doing this in a place like this was no easy task. After taking Gu Taehwi in like that, I lost my strength and collapsed limply. It was already the third time. Forget the sweat-soaked bodies—what really made me frown was the sticky mess below.
It had been about a week. The way Gu Taehwi kept clinging to me was enough to drive me insane. At last, he pulled out, and only then could I barely catch my breath.
“Hey, Kim Sahee. Turn around.”
What? Wasn’t it over? I had been staring blankly at the ceiling, but at his words—saying he wanted to go again—I frowned.
“Again? Enough already. I’m exhausted.”
I pushed myself up awkwardly and glared at him. At my fierce look, the corners of Gu Taehwi’s lips curled upward.
“Hah, like someone in your position gets to complain.”
Seriously. Everything about the way he talked was messed up. I slapped his hand away as he kneaded my backside and shot him a sharp glare.
“I told you not to say that.”
He scratched the back of his reddened hand and spoke shamelessly.
“Then if you don’t want to hear it, date me.”
“……”
“I’m telling you, I’ll cover everything—from your allowance to your lifestyle expenses.”
What a lunatic. I was so dumbfounded I couldn’t even speak. One of the ridiculous reasons this relationship even continued was because Gu Taehwi genuinely liked me. Every time he pushed like this, asking me out, I had no idea how to respond.
“I don’t need any of that.”
I blatantly ignored his confession and lay back down on the yellow linoleum floor. For some perverted reason, he preferred this. Behind me, I could hear him grumbling.
“Fuck, you just brush off someone’s confession like this?”
Anyway, I hated that he was serious about me. I just wanted us to stay nothing more than a common arrangement, and when the day came that I wanted to die, I wanted him to let me go without hesitation—so I wouldn’t leave behind even the slightest attachment to this damn world.
“Tch, a girl with nothing going for her, yet such a high nose. Makes me keep coming back.”
Muttering, Gu Taehwi pressed his body against mine from behind, his sweat-soaked chest sticking to my back. His unusually hot body heat seeped into me as he began grinding against me again.
“Hey, if you date me, you’d be hitting the jackpot.”
“No… ah… Once I pay off all my debts, then…”
“You’re just gonna drop dead?”
Nod, nod. I nodded at his words. That’s right. Once I paid off the suffocating mountain of debt my father left behind, I planned to die—just like that. Peacefully.
If I died leaving debt behind, who knew who it would fall on next—my mother, my aunt, my uncle, my nephew. Those thug bastards treated anyone with shared blood like they were jointly liable. I didn’t want to be a burden even in death. As I frowned, lost in those serious thoughts, Gu Taehwi, plastered against my back, let out a snort.
“Bullshit. I’ll drag you out of hell myself.”
As his weight pressed back into me again, I gasped and asked,
“Hey… ngh… then why hell?”
“What, you think a girl mixed up with thugs is getting into heaven?”
Unbelievable. But I couldn’t think of anything to argue with. Honestly, even heaven would probably wave me off in disgust. The thought soured my mood. Digging my nails into the back of his hand gripping my hips, I spoke.
“Just… hurry up and finish.”
“Nope, babe.”
Of course he’d say that. Stubborn as ever. I could already tell today was going to be a nightmare. Whenever I talked about dying, he’d go crazy like this and press himself against me even more.
Murmuring “babe” over and over, Gu Taehwi wrapped his arms around my chest from behind.
“Ha… I’m melting… fuck.”
I didn’t like the feeling of being bound by him, both above and below. I twisted my body.
“Wow, this is exciting.”
Pressing his lips to my ear, he chuckled and planted quick kisses. Disgusting bastard. Sometimes I couldn’t tell whether he liked me or just my chest. He’d show up whenever he felt like it and grope me endlessly—it was getting unbearable. Ah… mm. Blotchy handprints spread across my pale chest. Whether I liked it or not, he kept rubbing his lips against my cheek, completely absorbed in kneading me.
“Fuck, I’m going crazy.”
“Stop… ah… ngh…”
“Sahee. You probably don’t even realize this.”
Muttering obscenities, he raised both fingers. I was already out of my mind from him pressing against me from behind, and the intense stimulation made it even harder to endure. Instinctively, I tried to crawl away across the floor, but he yanked my waist back sharply. It went deeper.
“Hey, hey, where do you think you’re going?”
“Ahh—stop, stop… ngh…”
A sharp sensation shot through me, and flashes of light burst before my eyes. My long hair swept across the floor as I shook uncontrollably.
“Quit your nonsense. Hurry.”
He must’ve had a filthy rag stuffed in his mouth—the way he talked was that crude. His actions were no better. Gu Taehwi started moving, letting out groans of pleasure.
“Babe.”
The position was unbearably embarrassing. The loud friction and the humiliation of it all made my face flush red. We’d done this hundreds of times by now—my shame should’ve worn off—but somehow, it never did. And of course, Gu Taehwi didn’t miss that reaction.
“Babe, are your ears red right now?”
“Ah, seriously… I said I hate this… ahh…”
I lowered my head, mumbling in protest. I felt like I was going to die of embarrassment. What was this, like I was some kind of animal? Ugh… mm… I couldn’t hold it in and let out a muffled cry, and from behind me, I heard him snicker.
“Ah, Kim Sahee. You’re so damn cute. Seriously.”
“Ah… s-stop!”
“You do this with me all the time, and you’re still shy?”
“It’s not… that… ah…”
He let out a low laugh, clearly enjoying my reaction, and pressed his hot lips to my ear.
“Ha… why are you still acting so adorable, huh?”
“Ah!”
As he finished speaking, his movements grew rougher. The overwhelming pleasure made my whole body stiffen. Sweat trickled down my temples. Supporting myself on trembling arms, I groaned. The sensation below was overwhelming. Honestly, it felt like Gu Taehwi spent every waking moment figuring out how to torment me.
Sensing I was nearing my peak, he quickly moved his hand.
“Crazy—ah… ahh… ngh…”
“Ha… unbelievable.”
Every time his hand moved, my vision spun.
“Slow down, just a little… ngh…”
“Then you try doing it yourself. Think that’ll work?”
Clinging to his sweat-soaked body, I moved my hips. Wanting to die was one thing—but pleasure was pleasure. Even if I was going to die someday, I didn’t want to waste myself being miserable here.
